My next therapy appointment is looming, and I haven’t done my homework. He will ask me if I tried any mindfulness exercises, and I will:
b) tell him I think mindfulness is bunk; or
c) ask for a hall pass to the bathroom, then ditch the therapy session.
When I was searching for a copy of the book on Amazon, the first promoted suggestion was a book about crystal therapy for anxiety. I have approximately the same attitude toward crystal therapy as I do mindfulness, right wing ideology, and the Los Angeles Dodgers. My wife said it would be funny if I went into the session and placed crystals in a pattern around me on the floor before beginning.
I contacted the therapist because my anxiety was off the charts and I needed coping mechanisms in a hurry. I didn’t really get what I wanted, although it was helpful to talk through a few things. Now my anxiety is down to my normal background level – it is there, but it doesn’t scare me. I survived bipolar and anxiety without therapy since 2007, so maybe I don’t need it now.
Then again, I shouldn’t break up with him just yet. If I get this new job, my anxiety will increase, but I haven’t heard back from HR yet. My anxiety will definitely increase in my current job, because we continue to get more work without adding people to spread the new work around.