home again

Nicole returned home from the psych hospital on Thursday. She feels a lot better, but I worry that it may be temporary, so we’re closely watching her mood and behavior for signs the meds aren’t working again. After being in poor condition for so long, I came to accept that as normal, but now I have to adjust how I relate to her and her illness. She still has a lot of room for improvement, but maybe she is more capable of taking a little more responsibility for her own care rather than relying on us for everything. Let’s hope, at least.

The hospital didn’t bill her Medicaid, they billed our private insurance instead, so now the insurance company is complaining. Another fine mess, requiring me to make phone calls at a time when I don’t want to talk to people.

I’m not doing great. I want to isolate, I don’t want to go to work, and I don’t want to interact with people in general. I have no energy, no motivation, and no interest in doing things to take care of myself. I thought the new med would improve that, but maybe I need a higher dosage. I guess this is something to tell my psych tomorrow.

feeling better

My daughter came home from the hospital on Tuesday. The tests and the endoscopy were negative, so the most likely conclusion is that it was caused by smoking marijuana. All the sources I researched said her symptoms would be gone in 1-2 days after quitting, but apparently the THC was slow to leave her system, since she had the symptoms for almost a week after her last smoke. Anyway, she started feeling better Monday, and they kept her one more night to make sure there wasn’t a recurrence. I am relieved that she is okay now, because we were really worried about her.

Now I have to catch up on the work I missed, since I took 2-1/2 days off. Work doesn’t seem too important when your loved ones are seriously ill. I was behind last week, so now I’m even further in the hole. Now I have to manage my problems again. Ugh.

no vacation

I should be on a trail in Pennsylvania somewhere, but instead I’m sitting next to my daughter in a hospital room. She has had nearly constant nausea and frequent vomiting that has become worse over the last two weeks. We took her to the ER Wednesday, and they gave her prescriptions and sent her home. We had to return later on Wednesday because she couldn’t keep anything down.

The toxicology report said there was marijuana In her system, and they decided it was Cannibinoid Hyperemesis. She had been smoking pot to help the nausea, but instead it made her worse. They didn’t think they needed to do any more testing, but we asked them to look for other possibilities. She got a CT scan, but it showed nothing significant. They don’t want to do an endoscopy, but we will keep bugging until they agree.

Needless to say, things have been pretty glum around here. Hopefully we can get her healthy soon. I feel pretty helpless right now.