I received a letter from my therapist explaining that he is no longer practicing at my psychiatrist’s office, and my scheduled appointments are canceled. If I want to continue seeing him, I would need to visit him at his new location.
After some thought, I’ve decided I’m not going to continue therapy with him, or anyone else. I was thinking about ending our sessions anyway, as I wasn’t getting a lot of benefit out of them. His emphasis on mindfulness didn’t seem to work for me, and sometimes he appeared to not really have any alternatives. There were a couple uncomfortable moments where he would struggle to find something to talk about. He might be effective for someone else, but apparently not for me.
I’m not really emotionally affected by this. I know some people have a true connection to their therapist and see them as a lifeline to their continued mental health, but I never had that feeling. In the past I have had the idea that I “failed” therapy three different times. I don’t feel this was a failure for either me or the therapist, I think we just weren’t compatible or complimentary.
When I started seeing him, I wanted some techniques to work on the constantly increasing anxiety that I struggled with a year ago. I now think it was a physical effect of a long manic episode, because my anxiety slowly decreased when we got the medication right. I still have plenty of anxiety, but it has returned to a manageable level at this time. I don’t think I need individual assistance in dealing with my problems. I need strategies to work on my social anxiety, but I think I can do it on my own at this time.